(LJ)fizzylizard/(LJ)only_the_trying/Heather has been my best friend practically since we met in '08 and sometime in '10 I was whining (vaguely, because there are rules about discussing in-comm stuff outside the comm) about wank at (LJ)mil_wives. (Spoiler: the comm is chock full of useful information and nice people and comiseration and also chock full of wank. Though I haven't been active there in over a year so it might be better now, I don't know.)

Fizzy helped me more than anyone else during Chris's deployment, and is a military brat herself, so I knew that (aside from the not being who she said she was, apparently) she wouldn't be a true troll in the vein of people who post flashy GIFs in epilepsy forums. More like, as we saw, someone who posts articles about military politics/war/the American military that sometimes (often?) raised the ire of some of us who've spent our lives safely ensconced in the American Bubble. Often times I was one of them. I'll be honest with you (that's what this post is about, right?), I like Fizzy a lot more than I like Jules. And not just because Fizzy is real and Jules is not. We had some pretty big arguments over "the Jblog" and while I never outed her, there were times when I wanted to.

The reason I never did was because I have a better idea of the kind of life Fizzy has than most of the people who know "Jules." It's not my place to tell Fizzy's story but suffice it to say the girl needed an outlet. And since she was on m_w and various other places (most of which I ignored because I'm not a parent or othe reasons), she couldn't just say "oh and by the way this is an RP journal."

I had an old paid account that had just been sitting around because I had set it up for Chris before the deployment and he had never used it. (That's why it's called "koken23" by the way. Chris is also koken23 on Twitter [though he doesn't use it] and XBOX Live [which he uses daily].) Then I re-set it up as an LJ for my mom, and she didn't want it either, so I gave Fizzy the password and let her do what she wanted with it. (That "We're adults!" icon? I originally put that there for my mom to use. And the "let's be friends!" one with the manatee.) And I've kept the secret all this time. And I helped with ideas for "Jblog" posts.

And now that account is fully deleted, which is kind of a bummer because I might have had use for an old account someday but oh well, can't change the past.

This isn't an apology, and this isn't gloating. This is just the facts from my perspective. Hopefully I don't lose any friends over this (or get kicked out of m_w, I did vouch for "Jules" after all) but I don't mind helping Fizzy take a break from all the bullshit she has to deal with on a daily basis.

Also, I've read the first few chapters of the novel (it's a work in progress) and let me just say that it was nice to see Fizzy letting nice things happen to some of her characters. She heaps sorrow on her characters in canon the way the SPN writers heap sorrow on Sam and Dean, except her book doesn't have the limits that network TV has. Simply put, she burns her characters as much as I spoil mine. And at least she writes. I haven't sat down and written fiction in forever. This is the first long block of text I've written in awhile and it reminds me that I need to get back to at least blogging, if not working on my own novels.

Also-also: I haven't read any of the other posts about the "Jblog" fallout so I don't now what else has been said, and I didn't get to read all the comments on the coming-clean entry (I had to go to bed) before the LJ was taken down, so I don't know what else is being said about the whole affair elsewhere, but if anyone wants to link me to them I'd appreciate it just to know what's going on. If you ask me not to comment on those posts, I'll give you my word. Easier to keep my Fizzy Defense stuff here anyway. :)

This entry was originally posted here at my DW journal. You can comment here or there. :)

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